Mmm... damn, that sucks. Loosing people you love, surrounded by people who can be shitturds and then an unhealthy relationship? I know how this feels.
Anyways, glad to see you back Ry, and it's awesome to have you back in our community. We also sorta lost one of our own. It's an admin that had resigned due to his problems in real life dealing with stuff, but I guess, life moves on. I understand life gets in the way, and well, it sucks. It really does suck.